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2011-07-12T11:18:00.000-07:00

"Forgiveness is letting go of the hope that the past can be changed." --Oprah Winfrey

Lately I feel like I have been confronted with the understanding of forgiveness. With the recent things that have happened in the last few years of my life, I feel like working to not spread and implicate suffering while not beating myself up at the same time has been a challenge. How do we undo the wrong that we have suffered or have felt that has been done to us? How do we make right what once was or used to be or even yet, should have been, "should" be?

I used to believe that if I ate it all up, put all the responsibility, blame and guilt on myself that maybe I could handle it. I could do it all on my own. The last few years I have learned that that is not true. When you take on the pain and suffering of others, you take away their learning, and the possible gift of understanding of the consequences of their actions, what they are creating. This is coming from someone who has taught herself and in other ways learned a form of codependency, and a need to "fix things" in order to feel safe. But at the end of it, the suffering I didn't want to spread or "put on anyone" still hurt me. And when I hurt I realized I couldn't be my best self and express that accordingly. In turn I realized other people I felt I needed to protect would hurt too because I believe we are all connected in a deeper collective way.

So after many years of being a certain way, where would I go from here? I would decide that I was tired of the old way of suffering. I would recognize that suffering was like a wheel, a cycle, a pattern of behavior. Round and round and round, neverending, with no hope of ever getting off.

When I saw this, I realized how easily we are privy to getting on, getting drawn to the wheel of suffering. In Buddhism, this is called Samsara. In my life story, I know how long I have experienced this ride and so have many others I know. In their own ignorance some have drawn me into the same pain thinking that theirs was somehow different, not realizing it is all the same, that at the core this pain and suffering is Universal, and part of the human condition.

Yet as I prayed the other day, for grace, and through prayer created the intention for something more Divine. Seeking freedom, I saw a place where one could move farther from Samsara, "the wheel of suffering", and transcend into a different space. This is a place of compassion. To me compassion is an important quality that helps one move forward from the pain that one experiences via duality, judgment, envy, anger, fear, hatred. Compassion has a welcoming and encompassing energy that swallows all things and absorbs the darkness of ignorance and brings them back to the Source, which is Light.

Through my process in understanding forgiveness I used to think that if I took the pain caused me unto and into myself that I would be able to make up for what was done. I have learned that that is not true. I cannot take the actions of another and try and make up for what their choices were, out of their own ignorance of the nature of things and the consequences of their actions. I could not take away their suffering that way. I could only choose, now that the seed of suffering had been planted in me, to decide whether or not I would nurture the seed and what would I nurture it with to see what and how it would grow. Would I water it with anger, fear, revenge, hatred, ignorant repetition? Let it grow and grow so that it would express such qualities? Or would I tend to it with a sense of awareness knowing what it was so that I could decide to grow something that would inspire and create beauty? I would try as I might to tend it with love, with light, with prayer, with awareness. Yet it would not be so easy, it would require going deep into the depths of those dark places, scary uncomfortable places where one would test her faith, inner conviction to find Light. It was believed where there was darkness, there was light.

And so in a part of this process, a gem of wisdom was uncovered along the journey. A wonderful quote about forgiveness. One did not have to question one's worth, or place blame, but to accept the pain and choose to move forward. To fully accept the wrongdoing without knowing why and to know one was better and wiser and had the power to choose different. One could choose to see the pain and suffering of the past for what it was and choose to walk away and be freed.

"Forgiveness is letting go of the hope that the past can be changed."

my truth

2011-03-29T10:20:00.000-07:00

i believe i do not need religion to have a relationship with God.

i love the freedom this provides me.

i can release dogmas and schools of thought, come and go as i please in my consciousness and desire.

and know ultimately i am responsible for my own life, i co-create this life.

i am not a victim, i am a child of God.

who is All Powerful and All Knowing

and I who is a part of this Great Thing

need only recognize that I simply am,

which is simply that.

A Part of Something Great.

everyday i live remembering and honoring this knowledge as best I can, beyond all the dramas and stories that unfold around me.

2010-12-21T15:17:00.000-08:00

"It is a weakening and discoloring idea that rustic people knew God personally once upon a time but that it is too late for us. There never was a more holy age than ours, and never a less. There is no whit less enlightenment under the tree by your street than there was under the Buddha's bodhi tree."

--Annie Dillard, from the book For the Time Being

2010-11-15T14:23:00.000-08:00

life is not about being right and/or wrong;

or what is right and/or wrong,

but being honest with ourselves.

as we are, we can be honest with others.

and that is truly the freedom we have always desired.

move beyond labels, distinctions, parameters and boundaries,

and scary as it can be, pursue limitlessness, expansion

the unknown.

listen to your heart.

i pray that is something i create here and now.

-jl

2010-10-20T11:26:00.000-07:00

"A diamond is a piece of coal that stuck to the job."
--Michael Larsen

healing

2010-05-19T09:48:00.000-07:00

a prayer for self:

I release my unconscious need to self abuse through my inner dialogue, in the form of thoughts and feelings. any negative thoughts and judgments i have about self i choose to release now. There is nothing I "should" be doing. I always have a choice in any given moment. I decide. I know I am a Beloved Child of God, Goddess, Universe and I embrace the knowing and remembrance of this truth.

In this perfect moment in time, I embrace who I truly am and let myself Be.

In the Name of Love and all things Kind and True,

Amen.

a prayer

2010-05-19T09:44:00.000-07:00

((breathe and center))

I set an intention, NOW, in this very moment that whenever I think of someone, good or bad, I easily release and relinquish any judgment and place within it a seed of prayer full of Goodness, Love, and Light and realize and focus on the core spiritual service of sending, sustaining, cultivating, and expressing Love. I easily allow the illusions to fall away, all judgments about myself and others and find in this wonderful unfolding, enlightening, and blossoming process we truly all are free.

Amen.

-Janice

"Finally...whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things." Philippians 4:8 NIV

2012

2010-05-12T15:38:00.000-07:00

Ac Tah there are a lot of people who are scared of what will happen in 2012. What would you tell them? How would you tell them to prepare? Because there is a lot of fear.

Well, we truly have so much strength, such an ability to materialize what we think and all our fear, and the fear humanity is creating, can become our reality. If we do nothing, a lot of people want to sit and wait to see what happens in 2012, and I tell people that if we sit and watch, nothing will happen. Things will be the same. The way humanity is now is stressed out and it wears us out. When the world increases it’s energy it automatically increases our sensations, our feelings. The way people live life now, stressed our and high-paced, they will get more stressed out and get more emotionally unstable. Right now people are wearing themselves out, they have gotten lost in themselves and this has impeded their evolution. Humans stopped evolving a long time ago. They are just looking for comfort. But this is based on damaging everything around them. We generate electric energy which is beneficial, it helps us. It illuminates the night, roads, we entertain ourselves, but we don’t realize that behind this benefit we are damaging the earth. In this process of Earth changes, a process of how we understand things, right now people need to compete with other humans to advance. There are a lot of natural methods now, like electric energy to generate energy naturally without harming the earth. Sometimes it depends on a country’s economy. People don’t want to make the change because they are afraid. They are afraid of not having a job, of still earning a paycheck, they are afraid of economic instability, but they don’t realize that fear has a consequence. That consequence isn’t positive. On one hand, I think that in about 13 years humanity will enter into a psychotic state, an emotionally instable state. Anyway, those 13 years will pass. If we do nothing, people will arrive at that time in a very aggressive state, fighting in a primordial state, in a territorial state, wanting to win, wanting to take, wanting to accumulate, being competitive. But if those 13 years are going to pass anyway, we can do something during these Earth changes, and this shift in consciousness is just two or three years away, we can revert our way of thinking, our way of living; I think we could live a more peaceful way.

And evolve, right?

Evolve, affectively. Evolution is practically when we start developing a better living systems, better systems, more natural systems, more inexpensive and higher quality ways of living. Nevertheless, if you are going to develop a new project you need to fight against the emotions of all people, especially people who lead countries or towns. If it isn’t in their consciousness, in their level of perception as to what is best for a town, you automatically need to struggle. There are a lot of inventions in the world that would have changed our world, but they are not utilized because the level of evolution of a lot of people does not allow this shift in consciousness. Nevertheless, my ancestors said that this was a time of the town, of the people, of the knowingness that remains to activate itself in during this time so that people would realize that we don’t need to depend on leaders.

Fortunately, the earth is entering a highly-vibrating state that allows us to know that if I have a guide that is not taking me to a new level of consciousness, a evolutionary level, then I have the opportunity to assume the responsibility, perhaps not to change my religion or philosophy, but to assume the responsibility for my spiritual practice and to begin to create a process of unity.

After all, what I am promoting throughout the country and where ever we are invited, is precisely the unity of philosophies, religions, cultures. People are about to open to multiculturalism. There are people now who have two or three religions, they practice two or three different philosophies, they create a collage of knowingness, which is good because you begin to analyze what works for you and what doesn’t. What you need to leave to aside… People are awakening.

As you said, they then realize what makes them spiritual for themselves, what makes them happy, what brings them harmony. Right?

Yes. I feel that the first thing humanity needs is an energy to help them adapt to the changes that are coming forward in 2012. And this energy needed is an energy, which people now think of as being highly-vibrating, but if we analyze our lives and our environment, the highly-vibrating energy that we can produce is produced by us through happiness. When someone is happy they don’t need rules, laws, that you direct them, that you watch them or tell them what to do. A happy person is in a state of consciousness of sharing, of giving, of releasing conflicts, of eliminating problems, they allow it to be in the past. A happy person can change.

They realize that there is enough of what is needed for everyone, they don’t compete.

Yes, we are entering into the time of spiritual coexistence and not of spiritual competition. We were taught to compete when we were young in school. To want to be the best, but they never told us that competition doesn’t apply to all of life. Humans apply competition to all aspects of their lives. When humans realize that within spirituality there shouldn’t be competition but rather coexistence, in that moment they begin to evolve.

I agree because in that moment, the way they see the world completely changes, how they see themselves, how they see everything.

Yes, we were taught that we should always have the best in life, which is good because this causes us to evolve, but there are also aspects of our lives to which we should always be open to coexistence…

Transcript of Part 2 of an Interview with Mayan Spiritual Leader Ac Tah by Kalyn Raphael. for more go to www.toltecmysteryschool.com to view the actual video and also part 1 of the interview.

2010-05-04T11:03:00.000-07:00

Decide what your highest priorities are,
and have the courage and independent willpower to say no,
pleasantly, smilingly, and unapologetically--
to the things that are less important to you.

-Stephen R. Covey, "Learn to say no" card from "The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People" card deck

if not now, when?

2010-01-26T21:18:00.000-08:00

paradise

heaven

happiness

is not far from you.

it is in you

comes forth from you.

is you.

here.

now.

wake-up!

no need to wait, claim the good that is your God Given Right.

now.

yes!

now.

i bless you with yes's

and ask you to look about you

at the endless open doors

that await your passage:::

a wonderful reminder

2010-01-21T13:09:00.000-08:00

The moment one definitely commits oneself, then providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one’s favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way.
- Goethe

2009-12-03T17:03:00.000-08:00

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The Warrior of the Light is terrified when making important decisions.

"This is too much for you," says a friend. "Go on, be brave," says another. And so his doubts grow.

After some days of anxiety, he withdraws to the corner of his tent where he usually sits to meditate and pray. He sees himself in the future. He sees the people who will benefit or be harmed by his attitude. He does not want to cause pointless suffering, but nor does he want to abandon the path.

The Warrior allows the decision to reveal itself.

If he has to say "yes," he will say it bravely. If he has to say "no," he will say it without a trace of cowardice.

--Excerpt from Paulo Coelho's Warrior of the Light

something wonderful

2009-11-18T00:21:00.000-08:00

"You taste delicious

Animals understand you

Your importance is unusual

The funny faces you make are interesting to look at

You fight for power in all the right ways

Ecstatic gratitude is pouring out of you

I see the best in you, your divine attitude

You have strong feet and a pioneer's heart

No one can overflow as well as you can

You are famous with God

You are famous with me

You are famous with the snakes and birds and roses and pines and ocean and earth and sky

A lost tribe salutes you from the other side of the veil

You remind me of a star "

The preceding oracle comes from Rob Brezny's new book, PRONOIA Is the Antidote for Paranoia: How the Whole World Is Conspiring to Shower You with Blessings. To view videos and hear podcasts drawn from the book, go here.

to see more, check out www.freewillastrology.com

I LOVE this guy!

discovery

2009-09-05T11:23:00.000-07:00

what a difference a year makes!

i was looking through a journal and found this entry from last year...hope you enjoy it.

love, janice

Sept. 10th, 2008 Wednesday

I feel a strong sensation, something new? a suspension between worlds. outside, in this backyard is a quiet and natural stillness. although the sky is overcast, there is contemplative dampness, cool maritime breeze, birdsong, an occasional car passing by, dogs chewing, birds ruffling trees, hummingbird wings. This is a good and beautiful life, I realize in this moment. Hearing the pen move across the paper in unison with all the sounds, the symphony of nature, even the light i perceive different. Brighter. Clearer, perhaps, as if things have become technicolor.

Last night in my sleep I saw and experienced the quantum theory. I awoke wide-awake to clarity, knowingness, lucidity and watched and felt and sensed the haze come over me to drowsy sleepiness once again. for a moment, i understood and clearly experienced what it meant to be The Observer. The Creator of my experience. Things seemed unreal in a very real, surreal, sort of way. It was, it is--a delightful and playful feeling of creativity; a play of creativity, a play of creation. We as the masses are being freed from mental slavery, spiritual bondage, tired of being numb, separatist, distracted and unfeeling. We claim a new life, our true life, Our Birth Right, by which we are made whole. We become aware of connectivity, kindness, brotherhood, prosperity. We are no longer divided in heart, mind, soul. We are connected to Spirit and by Spirit. We see clearly we see that we no longer need to suffer, be blinded, ignorant to the truth, that we are meant to love and be loved, live significant and beautiful lives of creativity, progress, evolution. No more rat race...the facade, the illusion falls away. No more racing to the top to claim the falsified throne, a place outside of ourselves we have been tricked into believing is where we need or should be, but coming into the very present moment.

Again in these times of crisis, of evolution and revolution, we come back into ourselves, get quiet, listen. "She/he who seeks shall find." And we join the revolutionary process at this Most Blessed Time and Place in History that some would call the Liberation of the Soul.

Be freed now. Everything you and I experience is a play between love and fear, light and dark, all but are One, the yin and the yang, the play of opposites, essential components of the other. Yet we still go Home.

I pray that in all of our personal dramas and circumstances, big and small, that we easily surrender and embrace all that is Love.

-Janice

2009-06-18T11:57:00.001-07:00

Oppression is not exclusive

to any one class, race, or group

yet each one has suffered it.

In all its eras,

the rising and falling of civilizations,

Oppression is the life story of the human collective,

suffered at the hands of the individual.

Yet the individual with one body,

one mind,

and one voice,

strong of soul and true to heart

has the power to change it all.

-Janice

progress, not perfection

2009-05-30T19:12:00.001-07:00

"Yours is not a life of perfection, but rather a life of refining. To seek perfection is to seek something non-existent. Refine your thinking and the way you see your life by recognizing that things do not need to be perfect they just need to be improved. To refine your energy and your self recognize your mistakes and appreciate them. Allow mistakes to show you how to improve yourself, your life. Don't avoid, be embarrassed by or judge your mistakes because this will limit you. Use your mistakes to improve your life just a little each day and you will find yourself moving to new levels."

Kalyn Raphael, The Oracle

could we/you/i possibly be freed?

2009-05-06T19:17:00.000-07:00

"because if there's one thing i'm learning in my life and feeling, is that in so many ways, people are already freed and not realizing it. like i am realizing no one owes me ANYTHING and in turn realizing i owe them nothing either and working past the idea that i do. like for years i lived in service of feeling like i owed humanity and the greater good something, but i think the whole shift is about doing it out of pure desire and happiness and not out of debt. so as much as the idea applies to you and i that we don't owe anyone anything, neither do they us. no matter how fucked up they are or how much they hurt us. energetically and collectively, it feels like the playing field is being levelled. it reminds me of the biblical quote...like on the day of judgment, it doesn't matter if you are a saint or sinner, everyone gets the basic right to God's love. and everyone in some way, and i mean EVERYONE is feeling undercompensated, no matter who they are, and they are pissed off. and i think this is reflective in the economy. for the collective the feeling that all the hard work we've put in doesn't matter because we are starting over is the hard part, the getting over it. because now the only suffering people are going through, is the suffering they are causing themselves, honestly, and this is hard to admit. because a lot of crap comes up when we admit we are hurting ourselves, we would like to all think we are smart enough and we know better....but hey, we're human! we signed up for this! so i think everyone will pay their dues, but it will be to themselves. and it is apparent in their suffering, not in the image they are displaying to the outside world. i think the external imaging people are putting up is starting to become transparent and a big fat lie. anyway, i'm working on just being happy and letting go of what people think and that's hard so far, because we've been raised to put up the front and act like the other monkeys."

-an excerpt from a letter written to a friend today

2009-04-24T09:48:00.000-07:00

here come the miracles.

ebb and flow.

hard stuff, then the coasting.

celebrate the dance.

this time in life is about surfing the waves.

of emotion, thought, upheaval, movement and change.

love, janice

come lately

2009-03-21T14:51:00.001-07:00

lately it seems like as the world turns and burns and all these things are happening, we keep living. like yeah, the economy, etc etc....and i think eventually we will all have to let go of and grieve some kind of loss and so what? i have this deep feeling/knowing that we will all be okay. and what i mean about grieving a loss can vary, but it can also be something as simple as giving up an idea or something we believed in and invested so much time, energy, life, and self into to find that it's just an illusion, a falsehood, something transitory. for me this is also some old roles i'm used to playing, self identity.

self identity is so interesting and beautiful in some parts because it is a creation of choice, influence, inspiration, heredity and life circumstance. yet the truth of it, the nitty gritty, is that self identity is still a role, a costume, a part, something we outfitted, clothing of the soul. Inevitably we shall all come to find out that it's all just a sheath, and not the real true bare naked beauty that is self. We are all actors (eternal souls) in costumes (identity) on a huge stage of possibility and creation. On this World Stage, and in this World Play, people get acclaim and even fame for their sense of identity, the role they play. I notice that this is sort of tricky in a mythic sense, i mean, here you have someone deemed the ultimate of ultimate in the eyes of the watchers, the observers, the public, (any celebrity insert here, local or otherwise)...and while they get the accolades and accoutrements of being such a god or goddess, they also will eventually fall, because all gods and goddesses come to a crashing point of frailty, especially being that they still are human. and so the fame and recognition they received is theirs no longer, and what is left is an old empty shell of a once superhuman form; the soul who was once believed to be so great is still a being, but in a new form. and in the death of the god or goddess, he/she suffers the loss of such glory, and thus a process of letting go, of detachment. do we know that beyond this loss, this death, is a new form, a thing of inevitable and eternal beauty? do we transcend or continue to experience the suffering of loss and the inability to let go of attachment?

so in this world i see why people suffer, we so strongly identify ourselves as this or that, to find that we truly are not.

yet in this process is a reckoning, an awakening, i sense it as ascension, declaration, redemption. ultimately the truth and timelessness of freedom.
and who doesn't want that?

love,
She Who Surfs the Waves and Tides of Inevitable Yet Glorious Change (the temporariness that is called Janice L. )

a letter

2009-03-10T15:30:00.001-07:00

I feel so blessed today to be full of ideas of love and joy and freedom. these things are always present and today i feel fully connected to the abundance that is our natural state of being. i typed this friend a letter, and here i share it with you:

hey,

it seems as if you are going through a lot, processing much and trying to find the rhythm of it, the meaning, etc...

it took me a while to feel out what you were saying. i think i am going through a similar type of situation in regards to "ego" and "role playing."

i recently have come to the realization that in this life, we basically make choices about who we are and what we want to be, and then we live this life based on these decisions to find that there comes a time when we outgrow them, they no longer suit us, and then it's time to move on. i think this is a challenging process because it is basically like dying, it's death. it is difficult to come to terms with oneself full circle and realize that it is time to change, grow, and move on.

for me, this process has been manifesting in me realizing that most of my life i have identified with the martyr. which is the person who has to do the right things, never make a fuss, keep the emotional quotient of all involved at a stasis so things stay contained. some recovery programs would call this an enabler. so all (maybe not all but feels like it), all of my life so far has been dedicated to doing the right things at the expense of myself. when i told you the other day my need to be loved eclipsed my own personal dreams, i think what i meant is that i put other people first to my own detriment and to the eventual detriment of themselves. i guess seeing other people happy mattered so much that i forgot about who I really am and what I am meant to do. for me this is also guised in taking responsibility for others, and i think recently i am noticing how this investment of myself may on the surface seem like it is doing good, but underlying it all, is still a winner and loser situation in which no matter what i do, i set myself up to feel as if i am a loser. also, if i put all this effort into these people, they have to love me because i've done the right thing. right? wrong. but i think i'm moving past these notions.

so most of my life, i feel i have defined myself by this notion. but recently i think i'm coming to a place where it's not about good or bad, and that no matter what we do, there really are no guarantees. when i say that, i say it with a sense of peace and confidence, in which where i feel like it is not necessarily about literal and physical results as much as it is about my peace of mind.

in all of that, i am also realizing that there is a shift in my attitude towards life. my life seems to be so heavily defined by my "doing." but really i can do almost anything, i could even probably do it all, but not all at once, and truthfully the universe is too big to fit in this time-space linear reality so i think it's about transcending it. i don't think it really matters whether or not i can do it all because in doing i think there is an illusion where we **think*** we are in control. and we think we are created by our "doing" when we really are not. we may be shaped by our doing but not created by it. i think that's another illusory bubble coming to the surface and being popped... i think the truth is, is that it doesn't matter what i do, what matters is how i am, who i am, how i feel. so i think the question i am starting to ask myself instead of "what should i do? am i doing the right thing?" is transgressing into "who am i? how am i?" because i think that in this life, there will always be so many possibilities and truthfully one can only do so much. i think one is much more apt to be happy in a state of focused energy and intention, in that moment experiencing and creating joy rather than chasing all the possibilities in the ether, flying about. i can see how scattering my energies causes me to get tired and distracted easy too. not that that is a bad thing, but i think maybe there's a time and a place for that and can be done in moderation. and again, i think the linear time space reality we live in is limiting and functions on the notion of there being a lack of time when in other truths, higher truth, there is an abundance of time.

i was sitting on the couch yesterday while the kids were babbling and being noisy and distractable and i had this dull ache throb on the right side of my head for a few days. i was looking around at all the disorder and chaos around me, the messes, the things that needed to be done, etc. that thought would have usually gone into "look at yourself, you look like crap, you haven't showered and dressed for the day," but i caught myself letting go and stopping and just being okay with the way things were in the moment. they were what they were and in that moment i realized that there is an abundance of time. thinking there wasn't was just an illusion in some part of my consciousness. and also i realized in that moment how that part of my mind obsessed with time, created internal pressure in my life and in a way, i saw how i was beating myself up with my thoughts, thought habits. and this all would have built up and overwhelmed me. yet it didn't this time.

i am also noticing that in the world around us, that there is too much info, too much stuff that a person becomes confused by all the possibilities. it's so easy to get lost in all of the vastness of it all, but i think a shaman/artist kind of knows that the world is at her fingertips and she becomes a master when she realizes her ability to change forms and work with the natural flow and order of things. evolution sets her up for her best work.

i guess i think i also realize that life is not about fighting. fighting wastes so much energy and is eventually futile. i think even though a person would like to convince themselves they've won a fight, even though they may have on some levels, they still have also lost something in the process. so i think it's illusory to think there is a winner takes all feeling. in every situation there is a win and loss, it's a balance. i think the ultimate fighter understands that in winning and losing, they are pretty much expressions of the same thing. there is some kind of battle to be overcome, but i feel like even though one has been redeemed, one cannot forget they can lose just as easily. i think a real fighter understands that it is about being able to get back up over and over again and be humbled by that kind of beat down humiliation.

i also think it is the nature of humanity to subconsciously make choices that will cause them to continually win and fail. i think it's through failure and being humiliated that one gets to a point where they become stronger and stronger because no matter what a person thinks in a moment of loss and grief and self defeat, life still goes on. and i think this is challenging. to give up and realize that you put all of you and your best and it did not turn out the way we might have wanted to.

and so i think again it is not in the doing as much as the being. not so much "if i do this, this will happen" but "if i am this, it doesn't matter what happens."
the last concept i think i want to explore is the idea of quantity. i am thinking about my own life and how i, and our society in general lives in a paradigm where excess is the ideal. lately for me it feels like excess is more of a waste and a stress and unnecessity that drains my energy. and i think that what is starting to be key for me is quality more than quantity. in fact quantity i think for me as a concept is sort of becoming overrated. large amounts of things appeal to beings that are starving and hungry. one that exists in a state of perpetual hunger functions out of a certain id and idealogy than someone who is always in a state of feeling fulfilled, and i think beyond fulfillment is balance and being and stasis, which is kind of our natural state.

i think also it is truth that we are always in a state of abundance where our needs are met, and all the answers are accessible in every moment. it's more of a matter of alignment. are we in tune with the natural flow that we are by divine right and truth? i think when a being is out of alignment they suffer. on a personal note i've been experiencing big fluctuations between complete calm, connected, blissful, joyful clarity, to confusion, anger, hate, frustration, suicide. and i find this to be indicative of the process of the state of evolution. i think we are moving into an age where we focus more on being rather than doing, and creating joy and experiencing it by shedding the excess. and in all of it, welcoming and honoring the process.

i know for me this is still a process, i am still working through releasing "stuff"...on a material level and in my own attitudes about life and how i live...i find that right now my inclinations that are beginning to dawn on me might place me out of the mainstream and that's a difficult feeling for me sometimes. is to feel like i am on the fringe, wanting so much to be a part of the tribe, who is often slow to evolve and also i'm feeling the fear and persecution of being "different". but i think i am at point where i am starting to move past fear of prosecution and just learning to detach... i believe the tribes of the future are going to be more about family and connecting and working in groups towards progress rather than fighting over who has the best idea...i see a community emerging that is totally about support and growth and flourishing and empowerment vs. the old structural ladder of power and maslow's hierarchy of needs.

i have a feeling you are an integral part of this revolution too and i think if you can just trust your process, follow your bliss, and when i mean that is just work on being happy more than anything else, you will be giving your soul and higher self the food it needs to blossom and flourish, you will find yourself in a place where you will know that what you are doing is what you are meant to be doing, and above it all you will also truly be happy.

so i guess what i am saying is that it doesn't matter how your [event] turned out last night except that no matter what happened that you were happy. and if your [event/creation] brings you joy no matter what, then that is the only thing that matters. results are temporary, joy is forever.

love, janice

2009-03-02T14:26:00.000-08:00

there is no higher place that is only for the few...
move past an illusion of disempowerment.
ultimately the place we need to be and really want to be,
the place where we are, have been, and will always will be
but haven't fully realized it,
encompasses us all.

2009-02-25T17:25:00.000-08:00

there are no such things
as endings and beginnings

or really they are not separate from each other.
each are merely transitions
movement from one form, one state to another

the only thing guaranteed about life
is that it is eternal
it goes on and on never ceasing
even when our minds do
we go on and on

the moment you recognize this
is now
even though "they" tell you otherwise.
the voices of disempowerment---
they are everywhere.
but you are a seasoned harvester of life
and you know what is beautiful and good;
and you know what you are

the only way to know what is true and not true
is to listen to your heart.
let your heart be your guide.

so what are you waiting for?
why do you forget
the Happiness
this moment is?

why do we get caught up in ideas and notions,
idealisms, distractions
and forget that the only thing that matters is
this moment?

this moment is all we will ever have.
ALL.
nothing else matters but
this moment.

And that is pure unadulterated
100% organic
Happiness.
is that
one simple
Recognition.

the rest?
noise.

Rejoice and be love!
Janice

2009-02-14T18:03:00.000-08:00

the ultimate happiness
is making the most of any given moment
and in that making
realizing
that everything is perfect.

be blessed.

-janice

2009-02-14T18:01:00.000-08:00

it's not about who or what is right or wrong.

it is about whether or not you feel good and it empowers you and others, all at the same time.

be loved, and blessed and know you are well in these times of tremendous and remarkable change.

embrace the change that you are, and be freed.

-janice

a word about having

2009-01-23T09:43:00.000-08:00

It is not about the quantity but quality of the moment and experience; for it is always abundant, always Glorious.

The question is, are you in alignment with it? Or, do you allow yourself to receive it?

forgiveness

2009-01-09T20:12:00.000-08:00

what it costs to not forgive
costs more than it does to forgive.

going home

2008-12-19T09:10:00.000-08:00

for all your pain and your fear, is just the voice of your soul. it is the voice of your soul asking to go home. your soul longs to be from whence it came, which is God. this is where your soul belongs. your soul be-longs, longs to be, with God.

so in this moment, give it all up, everything you are holding onto that you think defines the significance and safety of your life, all the things you thought and think you need or that you cannot release out of fear. all ideas of ego, pride, identity, survival, economy---the shell you've created around yourself in order to "survive" in this world. it's no longer necessary. you are truly safe. but in order to feel, to experience, and ultimately, to know it, you must give up and let go. surrender. breathe deep and let go.

say, "okay."

say "yes."

it's not a fight as much as it is an acceptance, and a firm conviction that if God put you to it, He'll put you through it." Let go and let God. Realize you have always known this.

Be well, know you are safe and loved in any and all times of pain, suffering, and crisis. Know that angels watch and wait and are ready for assistance when you are.

"Ask and it shall be given."

Amen.

Love, Janice

inspire!

2008-12-18T14:59:00.000-08:00

How do you inspire? How do you affect and guide the energy God has given you in this life you call your life? What do you do with this thing that causes you to awake in the morning and allows you to breathe, infuse life into and unto yourself and others?

Find ways to inspire yourself and others, even if only by taking deep, healing, conscious breaths that bring you to full awareness of the moment, awareness of yourself, filling you with the energy and life that is your God given right. Breathing is something so simple, that has the ability to create a moment of truth whereby you become awakened by the truth of your Divine Nature, the inevitability of the reclamation of your Goodness. Come to the moment where you conjoin with the Forces of Nature and realize the importance, the significance of your life.

Let the illusions of false power fall away and let yourself be seen!

Breathe, infuse, inspire!

love, janice

in·spire
v. in·spired, in·spir·ing, in·spires
v.tr.
1. To affect, guide, or arouse by divine influence.
2. To fill with enlivening or exalting emotion: hymns that inspire the congregation; an artist who was inspired by Impressionism.
3. a. To stimulate to action; motivate: a sales force that was inspired by the prospect of a bonus.
b. To affect or touch: The falling leaves inspired her with sadness.
4. To draw forth; elicit or arouse: a teacher who inspired admiration and respect.
5. To be the cause or source of; bring about: an invention that inspired many imitations.
6. To draw in (air) by inhaling.
7. Archaic
a. To breathe on.
b. To breathe life into.
v.intr.
1. To stimulate energies, ideals, or reverence: a leader who inspires by example.
2. To inhale.

if

2008-12-09T10:40:00.000-08:00

if it doesn't exist,

create it.

no excuses.

2008-11-14T10:13:00.001-08:00

Remember--

The Dream Is Always Bigger Than The Doubt.

-janice

great men and women

2008-11-09T06:43:00.000-08:00

It is imperative to ask yourself, now, in this eternal moment, this moment that has the power to create and therefore change---

Am I great?

Let me help you answer that question. Yes. Yes you are.

Yet our world is being run by ideas of power over another instead of power and "liberty and justice for all." And here we are, common everyday people, Americans fighting a war that is not justified. And i am not just talking about the war in Iraq. I am talking about the civil war going on right now between Americans... the one that is pitting American against American, brothers and sisters amongst each other. It is an idea that this is "right" and this this "wrong" what some might call "morale", it is the creation of polarity, in order to cause a group to oppose one another.

There is no one to oppose. Once you put yourself in opposition to another, you create war, where you in that moment, deem to claim your interest, your sense of judgment, is greater than another.

We have been taught to believe in this land, the Home of the Free and the Brave, that if someone else gains liberty and a civil right, that we lose our own! Really think about that. Is that necessarily true? Let me remind you of something, when others are empowered, YOU are empowered. When others gain civil liberty, YOU gain civil liberty. When others lose their rights, YOU lose your rights! It is time to wake up to the knowing that we are all connected, we are all one, we are all a group and a collective. Ideas that separate us and divide us waste our energy and keep us from moving forward, as a group. They stun progress. What about the truth, the glory, the nature of the American Dream? It's time to evolve the dream. Let go of the old structures that no longer fit or serve and welcome the new.

If you want your life to have significance, then wake up! Wake up and see how important, how great you truly are. You are not greater than anyone. Like Martin Luther King Jr. said, we are here to serve one another. We need each other because we are part of one another. Don't for a second believe that your life, your point of view is more justifiable than anyone else's. We are here to help each other, we are here to grow together, we are here to learn together. We are here to evolve as a people, and it is so imperative for us to really think about those structures existing within our society, our political viewpoints, our religions, that sustain the idea of right vs. wrong, which is basically causing polarization, division, separation.

You have the choice to adopt a viewpoint that is holistic and encompassing, tolerant and loving. Some call that peace. Our world can be anything we want it to be. You don't have to fight for your right to be here. You don't have to fight for anything. You just have to know, I repeat, you just have to know, that it is your right to be empowered. And your empowerment cannot be true or real unless it empowers all. True empowerment is where we all gain, not one party gaining power and another losing power. Remember that. Remember what is true, Remember who you are.

You are a great man. You are a great woman. You are an American. You are impeccable and you are great. Why? because you, YOU truly believe in Liberty and Justice For All.

So ask yourself, are you fighting and sustaining the war? or are you creating the freedom that it is that you so desire?

"Be the change you want to see in the world."
-Mahatma Gandhi

Be blessed. Be great.

amen.

-Janice

breakthrough

2008-11-05T06:10:00.000-08:00

let your mind break, allow it all to come down and disconnect, watch the structures of illusion, and institutions that do not serve the greatest good of all, fall down. because in the true nature of things, we are all one, we all have a voice that deserves to be heard.

too long have we been insubordinated; to long have we been led to believe, in structural ladders of power, of striving for a place beyond and outside of ourselves, only for a select few. there is no such thing. soul liberation, freedom, true freedom, liberty and the pursuit of happiness belongs to us all. now we have true cause to come together and for a united purpose.

there is much in this evolutionary process we will have to release, old ideas, notions, thoughts that served the structure of power over another, but that is okay, because we still have each other and the knowing that we are united in overcoming anything and everything. why? because we are all connected and contributing, we all have helped to cocreate it, and this notion, this small glow of hope is ready to be taken into our hands and allowed to grow, expand and flourish.

some will cling even harder to their attachments. some will cling harder to their possessions, whether they be materialistic, spiritual, intellectual, habitual, emotional---all self generated and created. some will cling even harder to their religious values, for they fear freedom, they fear the responsibility, which is power, to see what and how they have created. they fear a sense of jurisdiction and guilt over their actions and what they have put out there. but let me tell you, there is nothing to fear. Nothing to fear. No thing to fear. Free yourself from spiritual bondage of the things in your life that keep you separate and believing you are separate from another. Whether the beliefs be spiritual, intellectual, political. we are being stripped of our forms of identification, the structures of the mind ego, in order to see what is there. to get back to our hearts.

to get back to truth.

truth is not in a book or a group of people. truth is on the inside, it is an inner sense of knowing, a deep connection to truth, to source, that which some may call God, it is a well spring of eternal love. eternal love judges nothing and no one. it is a sacred witness. the ego judges things and people. not your heart, which connects you to others. your heart connects you to the collective energy. your heart connects you to your greatness. your heart does not judge. it just loves and feels.

for a long time the heart has been ignored. our mental mind ego observations of the world around us is what has caused us to make many decisions that have nothing to do with the heart. in this way we have sought truth outside of ourselves, therefore created based on external truths instead of the gauge of inner truth. it is our minds that nag us, make us feel bad, tell us why we should feel bad, judges this and that, why this or that is wrong, blames, is slow to forgive, keeps us in a state of fear. and the mind, if not used properly, sustains a sense of fear and separation.

the heart is humble, it knows no other thing but humility and a sense of vulnerability and quiet strength. the heart doesn't scream, it feels, it suffers, it rejoices. it's time for the mind ego structures, our thinking modes, to fall away, and let our hearts guide us. it is the nature of things, of evolution, of revolution.

the new wave of change, the revolution of the new American, he or she who believes in unity, life, love, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness is not about waging war and fighting with guns. the new revolution is a way of the spirit, the freedom of soul, the revolution taking place is on the inside, we all have a war we are fighting internally, and it is time to surrender, and trust, and allow peace to thrive and allow expression of its presence. as we stop focusing on the wars outside of us and see how it has started inside of us, You and I alone, war will begin to cease. no war is ever justified in the heart, only through the mind. the ego mind has created war, not the heart.

our hearts will guide us to places that will mess with our heads and our logic, our minds will find reasons to cling to fear and ignorance. the mind does not teach trust and surrender, it is a tool. the heart leads and teaches us to trust and surrender. it's important to listen to our hearts. if we listen and let go, i promise beauty. there is so much within to behold. what greater way to love and respect yourself, or God if you choose, if you listen and let go?

you may choose pain, and that is okay. realize any pain and suffering you feel, although you would like to think is based on external events is always by choice on some level. remember something though: in pain is power; in pain there is the opportunity to transcend. remember that pain always precedes growth.

know you are not alone in your pain, when one of us suffers, we all suffer, yet we continue to evolve and grow, and at this time hope is imminent. it is beautiful and luminous, and its light is not small by any means, it is vast, infinite and expansive. clean off your lenses of perception so you can see how massive this energy is, however small it was once perceived.

look inside and see how beautiful you are and extend that vision to the world around you.

be bright, be love and be freed,
janice

get up, stand up

2008-10-24T09:15:00.000-07:00

Stand up and be seen and be heard--

Listen.

At this time in the United States of America, with the elections and new propositions being made, we need to ask ourselves what is our contribution.

More than our votes, what do our thoughts, ideas and intentions support? do they support tolerance, change, freedom? Or do they support duality, power over another, who is right and who is wrong? Who decides who is right and who is wrong? No one but you! It is your opinion and your perspective and that is all. In the eyes of God, all is acceptable, all is love. Do our opinions support and continue to feed the energy of anger or that of love, change, acceptance and tolerance, however difficult it is to reevaluate our current beliefs and ideas about things?

Let me ask you this: Who needs nuclear weapons when you have a collective of angry and fearful people?

Revolution causes us to take a good look at ourselves, it is not about blaming others or being right. It is about looking past the current state of events, illusions to foresee a future that is not some religious ideal, or outdated forcefed opinion of those in power or the media, but a true vision of LOVE, KINDNESS, ACCEPTANCE, and TOLERANCE dreamed and created by the people.

The new wave is change. It's evolution, it's inevitable. Free yourself from spiritual bondage and continual suffering over the need to be right and deem someone else as wrong. Free yourself from this need to glean power over another in this way, this way of labelling. Love your neighbor as you love yourself.

This is a wonderful and significant time in history to QUESTION EVERYTHING, especially authority, question yourself. Be free, ride the wave of change, let the American Dream thrive and be what it was always meant to be, more than just UNITED states, UNITED STATES of America, let it grow and spread as it was meant to, to a global and international scale to a UNITED WORLD. There is nothing to fear but fear itself! Let the dream live! Let freedom ring!

Stand up for what YOU believe in, not in what you were told to believe!

A True American is one who believes in the Dream of a Sovereign (United) Nation which is not defined by actual land mass and peripheries but by Collective Agreement and Harmony, Mutual Respect. Harmony is only achieved through Acceptance, Tolerance and Love. Continue to expand the dream of our forefathers, who writ our Nation, Dream, Idea of AMERICA and birthed it into being. Redefine the concept of America and the American! Pay respect to our American Ancestors by carrying forth the Dream with Love, Honor and Faith!

Choose to be a new being, an Enlightened American, Believe in the DREAM!

-Janice

empowerment and pride

2008-10-21T07:58:00.000-07:00

Often times, it is believed that empowerment can be gleaned from a sense of pride. However I ask you in this moment, this day, what is pride? it is a sense of identity, a sense of committing oneself to a belief, an ideal, a way of life. Whether it is in your familial heritage, religious or political views, nationality, or even what kind of music you listen to or what television programs you watch, your sense of identity is created out of your sense of pride.

Pride when used with proper intention is perhaps a powerful thing, but think again and see in what ways it can be used in disempowering ways. This is done when we identify so strongly with a viewpoint (the way we see things) or rather are choosing to see things that we lack tolerance towards others and what their viewpoints are on things. This in itself is a form of disempowerment when we invalidate another's life experience, for we were all given the gift of free will, the ability to choose our own learning path.

Who made you or I the authority on what is right or wrong? No one. God doesn't see any discriminations between you or I, in fact that is how we have come into existence is through the beauty of choice and free will and what makes us unique, different. Each being has their own path of learning to tread by which is theirs and theirs alone.

Remember this, you and I can only give others what we give ourselves. Or you can only give yourself what you give others. They are the same exact thing. What do you see in your environment? Do you criticize, see what is wrong around you? Ask and you shall receive-- therefore, that is how you see yourself, with criticism, the things that are wrong with you. Do you choose to see the beauty in others regardless of whether or not they choose or are in a state of consciously sharing it? If you do, then you see the beauty in yourself regardless of your own imperfections. We are all healing, and Works In Progress. At this time, on this planet, is a wonderful opportunity to tune into and ride, surf if you will, the energies of Love, Self Empowerment, Healing, and Evolution, Revolution. Be a part of this---rather, recognize that you ARE a part of this, celebrate it and be it. Cease to live in a world, in a viewpoint, a mindset that disempowers you, through the disempowerment of others through judgment and self criticism, the idea of "us vs. them, good vs. bad." CHOOSE to live in a world of tolerance and acceptance, whether or not you understand it or them. something i'd like to quote here is from the film "The Last Kiss": "How you feel only matters to you; how you treat the people you love is what matters."

Maybe all the world and all its people need the Big Embrace, that of Acceptance, Tolerance and Love, no more fighting over who is right and who is wrong, "We are Holy and walking the path and They are not." How about the idea that we all deserve to be here? Or the idea that there is enough for all of us to manifest our dreams and explore our higher potentials instead of fighting over quantity or worrying about who will get there first. What needs to be realized NOW is that we are all connected. Choose to be a Conscious Creator, to create and cultivate Love, Beauty, Abundance, and Honor Others in all shapes, forms, sizes and kinds. There is beauty wherever and whenever you choose to see it. Choosing Beauty and what is working rather than what is not working is a discipline, but I promise it opens up worlds and worlds of wonder, acceptance, and inner peace. The possibilities of this way of thinking reminds me of the song "Imagine" by John Lennon.

So ask yourself today, does your sense of pride empower? Who does it empower? Empowerment, REAL POWER, never comes at the expense of others, especially those you consider enemies, or the opposing "side". Ask yourself if the leaders you identify with choose empowerment of the group vs. the empowerment of only one viewpoint or party. Remember again that Empowerment, REAL POWER never seeks to disempower another. Real power always seeks to empower EVERYONE. Everyone is worthy of love and a good life regardless of religion, politics, and the economy. Seek to create a full life NOW.

And also remember, that we can only give ourselves what we give others. Choose to see Beauty, Love, Acceptance and Power Now. We are all Worthy of it, in the name of the Perfect Pattern, the Divine Design, Some may call God, Source, Universe.

May we all find that we walk hand in hand in power.

"But this is why we are drifting. And we are drifting there because nations are caught up with the drum major instinct. “I must be first.” “I must be supreme.” “Our nation must rule the world.” (Preach it) And I am sad to say that the nation in which we live is the supreme culprit. And I’m going to continue to say it to America, because I love this country too much to see the drift that it has taken.

"God didn’t call America to do what she’s doing in the world now. (Preach it, preach it) God didn’t call America to engage in a senseless, unjust war as the war in Vietnam. And we are criminals in that war. We’ve committed more war crimes almost than any nation in the world, and I’m going to continue to say it. And we won’t stop it because of our pride and our arrogance as a nation.

"But God has a way of even putting nations in their place. (Amen) The God that I worship has a way of saying, “Don’t play with me.” (Yes) He has a way of saying, as the God of the Old Testament used to say to the Hebrews, “Don’t play with me, Israel. Don’t play with me, Babylon. (Yes) Be still and know that I’m God. And if you don’t stop your reckless course, I’ll rise up and break the backbone of your power.” (Yes) And that can happen to America. (Yes) Every now and then I go back and read Gibbons’ Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire. And when I come and look at America, I say to myself, the parallels are frightening. And we have perverted the drum major instinct.

"But let me rush on to my conclusion, because I want you to see what Jesus was really saying. What was the answer that Jesus gave these men? It’s very interesting. One would have thought that Jesus would have condemned them. One would have thought that Jesus would have said, “You are out of your place. You are selfish. Why would you raise such a question?”
But that isn’t what Jesus did; he did something altogether different. He said in substance, “Oh, I see, you want to be first. You want to be great. You want to be important. You want to be significant. Well, you ought to be. If you’re going to be my disciple, you must be.” But he reordered priorities. And he said, “Yes, don’t give up this instinct. It’s a good instinct if you use it right. (Yes) It’s a good instinct if you don’t distort it and pervert it. Don’t give it up. Keep feeling the need for being important. Keep feeling the need for being first. But I want you to be first in love. (Amen) I want you to be first in moral excellence. I want you to be first in generosity. That is what I want you to do.”

"And he transformed the situation by giving a new definition of greatness. And you know how he said it? He said, “Now brethren, I can’t give you greatness. And really, I can’t make you first.” This is what Jesus said to James and John. “You must earn it. True greatness comes not by favoritism, but by fitness. And the right hand and the left are not mine to give, they belong to those who are prepared.” (Amen)

"And so Jesus gave us a new norm of greatness. If you want to be important—wonderful. If you want to be recognized—wonderful. If you want to be great—wonderful. But recognize that he who is greatest among you shall be your servant. (Amen) That’s a new definition of greatness.
And this morning, the thing that I like about it: by giving that definition of greatness, it means that everybody can be great, (Everybody) because everybody can serve. (Amen) You don’t have to have a college degree to serve. (All right) You don’t have to make your subject and your verb agree to serve. You don’t have to know about Plato and Aristotle to serve. You don’t have to know Einstein’s theory of relativity to serve. You don’t have to know the second theory of thermodynamics in physics to serve. (Amen) You only need a heart full of grace, (Yes, sir, Amen) a soul generated by love. (Yes) And you can be that servant.

"I know a man—and I just want to talk about him a minute, and maybe you will discover who I’m talking about as I go down the way (Yeah) because he was a great one. And he just went about serving. He was born in an obscure village, (Yes, sir) the child of a poor peasant woman. And then he grew up in still another obscure village, where he worked as a carpenter until he was thirty years old. (Amen) Then for three years, he just got on his feet, and he was an itinerant preacher. And he went about doing some things. He didn’t have much. He never wrote a book. He never held an office. He never had a family. (Yes) He never owned a house. He never went to college. He never visited a big city. He never went two hundred miles from where he was born. He did none of the usual things that the world would associate with greatness. He had no credentials but himself.

"He was only thirty-three when the tide of public opinion turned against him. They called him a rabble-rouser. They called him a troublemaker. They said he was an agitator. (Glory to God) He practiced civil disobedience; he broke injunctions. And so he was turned over to his enemies and went through the mockery of a trial. And the irony of it all is that his friends turned him over to them. (Amen) One of his closest friends denied him. Another of his friends turned him over to his enemies. And while he was dying, the people who killed him gambled for his clothing, the only possession that he had in the world. (Lord help him) When he was dead he was buried in a borrowed tomb, through the pity of a friend.

"Nineteen centuries have come and gone and today he stands as the most influential figure that ever entered human history. All of the armies that ever marched, all the navies that ever sailed, all the parliaments that ever sat, and all the kings that ever reigned put together (Yes) have not affected the life of man on this earth (Amen) as much as that one solitary life. His name may be a familiar one. (Jesus) But today I can hear them talking about him. Every now and then somebody says, “He’s King of Kings.” (Yes) And again I can hear somebody saying, “He’s Lord of Lords.” Somewhere else I can hear somebody saying, “In Christ there is no East nor West.” (Yes) And then they go on and talk about, “In Him there’s no North and South, but one great Fellowship of Love throughout the whole wide world.” He didn’t have anything. (Amen) He just went around serving and doing good.

This morning, you can be on his right hand and his left hand if you serve. (Amen) It’s the only way in."

Excerpt from Dr. Martin Luther King's "Drum Major Instinct."

You can read the full text speech at this link:

http://cantseetheforest.org/2008/01/21/the-drum-major-instinct-by-dr-martin-luther-king-jr/

Be Blessed, Be Great, Tread Fearlessly. Amen.

Love, Janice

amazing grace

2008-10-07T10:45:00.000-07:00

i love this song. to me it is more than an American anthem, it is an Anthem of the Spirit, of Soul Liberation. sometimes i think we get so lost in labels and a sense of self created identity we forget who we are. I ask you to ask who you really are today. drop everything and look within.

"Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.

T'was Grace that taught my heart to fear.
And Grace, my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear
The hour I first believed.

Through many dangers, toils and snares
I have already come;
'Tis Grace that brought me safe thus far
and Grace will lead me home.

The Lord has promised good to me.
His word my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be,
As long as life endures.

Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
And mortal life shall cease,
I shall possess within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.

When we've been here ten thousand years
Bright shining as the sun.
We've no less days to sing God's praise
Than when we've first begun.

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see."

the less we fill our egos and the more we fill our spirit, the more we find that we are full.

amen.

love, janice

the energy crisis

2008-09-28T09:30:00.000-07:00

The energy crisis has been an issue of concern for quite some time now, even going back a few decades. Looking for new sources of energy to fuel and feed and sustain our lifestyles. With issues like global warming and the Iraq War, we really need to question what is necessary. There tends to be a focus on lack by our current presidency and the need to fight for resources and maintain our stance on the Global/International Scale. But is it really necessary? What kind of attitudes sustain and create a future that is not looking so bright?

The truth is is that the United States has been a leader and visionary in the original premise as declared by our Founding Fathers in the Declaration of Independence and the Constitution, but it seems in our current state of affairs, that that vision has faltered and fallen far from grace.

I think it is interesting to note that the current energy crisis, the concern that we are running out of resources and need to fight for them is an old idea, an old paradigm-- something we all need to rethink. Lack, poverty consciousness is merely a way of thinking, therefore a state of being. Therefore we exist in this reality as a result of how we think as a collective. Also, i think it is interesting to note how this general idea that can be seen on the level of society is being played out on the level of the individual. Look at our society today. There is an abundance of material goods and items, many of them produced quickly with little regard to the future implications and consequences of the production of these items. Ninety percent of what we purchase is thrown away within 6 mos. Our society has become overconsumed, overinduldged and wasteful. We seek to fill ourselves and our lives with objects, objects that eventually lose their appeal and use. The energy used to produce these material goods, the earth energy, the earth's resources, human energy, the money we spent that we've worked for is basically being wasted. Thus the current state of the economy, but more on that later.

I would liken our societal wastefulness and energy depletion to our own personal lives. What do we spend our time doing? True, in the current state of affairs, one is taught to believe one must have a job, plug into the system and make some money to meet their basic needs and then maybe have some extra left over to spend on something. But that is not what we are going to focus on right now. What do we spend our personal energy on? Are we spending it on the things that sustain us and keep us whole or are we just wasting our energy on more distraction?

This thought came to me this morning. It is quite a process, the frame of mind i am at in the moment has me evaluating the quality of my life, really thinking about what truly makes me happy and sustains me. These things that do are really so simple. Sunshine, fresh air, Quiet time, meditation, solitude, balanced with family time, good times with friends, good books, positive and inspirational media, slowing down, getting quiet and really being in the moment. Being present and joyful in any given moment of doing. That fills me. These are such simple things, and they are basically free. They cost nothing, and are a God given right, Gifts from God. God truly fills me, the Source and the Supply of Life, its Quality and Meaning is neverending.

I know that creating more joy in my life means me letting go of old habits and ideas that no longer serve me, like overindulging in reality tv and internet. I'm not in the space of completely giving these things up, but lessening their hold over me, my investment of energy in them, to invest my energy into the cultivation of inner peace and tranquility.

so i ask you to question today: where do you spend your energy? what are the consequences of it in the long run? does it truly serve your well being and loved ones?

many blessings on your inner journey.

there are many worlds to explore within.

enjoy the process.

i would like to end with something. I believe the vision the Founding Fathers may have been somewhat forgotten, but the dream that is America, this place of Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness is still alive as hope and state of being and mind, and I am truly thankful for the current economical crisis and its collapse. May the Phoenix of the American Dream rise from the ashes and be bigger and better than we all have ever imagined.

Amen.

- janice

the greatest gift

2008-09-25T13:11:00.000-07:00

the greatest gift we can give anyone is belief in them being better and higher than they believe themselves to be. in everyday interactions and expressions, we find people who don't necessarily feel good to us, ones that we don't react well to, or them to us. in these moments, it is easy to let the mind-ego begin judging, criticizing and analyzing. this is the way we have learned to navigate and survive in this world. yet beyond this person's faults and shortcomings is a soul, filled with Spirit, of a Higher Nature and Being who has strayed far from his or her roots. One who has forgotten, as we all have, from Where They Come and from the Knowing That They Are God, a Perfect and Beautiful, Unique Expression of Source. It is in these moments we can recognize this truth, transcend the ego's judgments and choose to see others as better, the potential that resides within them, their possibilities of Great Expression.

This is a great gift, and interesting enough, we can only give ourselves as much as we give others. Or, we can only give others as much as we give ourselves. Do you choose to give yourself, therefore others, the best? Then seek at every opportunity given to see people for the Greater Beings that they are. And you, in turn are healed, at these moments of forgiveness. You are forgiving others for being as they are and for trespassing against you, your expectations, your judgments. As this happens, slowly watch yourself be freed. The energy used to hold onto our expections and judgments of others can now be used to create more of what we want, it is sent back into us, filling us with Love, Power and Energy, opening up new pathways of possibility and potential, and greater experiences.

Despite appearances, look past the illusions and choose to see the Good in Yourself, Your Self, and Others.

We shall be free.

-Janice

something new

2008-09-19T09:30:00.001-07:00

i've made a decision to post some of my journal entries.

normally my mornings are like this:

wake up, walk (great for the mind to walk and listen to some energizing music), get daughter ready for school, come home, meditate, sit outside, write. and then on with my day.

i gain a lot out of my moments of journaling, they are such a gift, in fact, it is such a gift to write and receive and tune into some great wisdom and inspiration, especially in the morning with a hot tea, some fresh air...there is definitely something in the air....think of it as magic perhaps, or the stuff by which dreams are made, and miracles are created.

here is a journal entry, dated August 30, 2008:

Fear is. Fear is as it is. All it is is an indicator to call you to choose different, to teach you to redirect your focus. Redirect it to what you want vs. what you don't want. So don't feed fear, give fear power, more credit than is due. That's all. Fear is asking you to choose differently.

I see now, with ease, with clarity, that as i nurture myself, i create more joy. Joy is ease, confidence and makes one more attractive to more joy, that which attracts joy. Joy, Abundance, Richness, Prosperity.

Become more joyful. Do that which nurtures you, makes YOU FEEL GOOD and watch how your life creates more of the same. Abundance abounds. How you treat yourself, your self love, is in direct proportion to what you create more of. amen. Focus on yourself. Your Self.

There is an abundance of time. Plenty of time. Enough for All. Enough time to be and do what you want.

Understanding the abundance of time, shifts perception, life is viewed much differently and more with ease.

It is my hope and my intention that I am able to express What I Know Is True.

I'll leave you with this thought:::::

Don't like it? Intend and recreate.

Pretty simple, don't you think so? If not, decide to make it so, and it is yours.

Unicorns are Free <3 <3 <3 <3

----end journal entry----

Thank you for listening, reading, watching and witnessing me and what I feel in my Heart to Express and Share.

Many Blessings, Much Love and Miracles Aplenty,
Janice

Remember

2008-09-14T12:47:00.000-07:00

Time.

Time is literally fading, we are losing time. People are feeling it, and they are scared. Yet, this is a great thing, losing time. Time is forgetting, it is the veil. And the forgetting is lessening as the REMEMBERING is increasing. The veil, the ignorance, the illusion of separateness, of space, of time is fading. Be prepared to awaken. It is all happening NOW.

I know you see, and I know you know.

It is good to see you, It is good to know you.

Be Blessed in this Eternal Moment of Revelation of Waking Up, and Being Awakened, Forever Hold Your Peace (Piece).

I love you,
janice

facing my fear

2008-09-12T18:13:00.001-07:00

this week has been most interesting. i am finding myself confronted with fear and insecurity and then in a moment feeling forced, compelled to confront the fear. this is a surreal experience. here i am, sitting, feeling fear, which at the moment feels most intense, my body is reacting, my heart fluttering, stomach feeling sick. i want so badly to run away and take flight but at the same time something inside me is telling me i have to stay and confront ("fight" in the fight or flight reflex)--so here i am at a standstill feeling in my body it is time to move, time to act.

i have been experiencing this fearful type reaction frequently lately, and as terrified as i am, i move forward, trusting, yet completely scared but still compelled to face things.

my biggest fear: what other people think. i am terrified of what people think, what they will think if i speak my truth, what i believe in. i'm afraid of being ridiculed and chastised, afraid of having to explain myself. but i still feel this burning inside of me telling me that i need to speak up and express what it is that i feel and see, and how necessary it is becoming. i know these things i speak come from the deepest part of my Being, Who I Am.

what do i believe in?

I believe in Love.

I believe that we are all connected at the core.

I believe we can do, be, have anything we want.

I believe God is Love is God.

I believe everyone has the right to be as they are.

I believe in Peace and a World that is Harmonious, Peaceful, Loving, full of Cooperation, Higher Learning and Pursuits and Brotherhood.

I believe Any and All things are possible.

So here I am, the small, ego me, little "i", who is afraid of being judged as being too positive, a hippie, too hopeful, but I know the truth is is that this is all possible. That God loves all of us enough that there is enough for all of us, that there is no "rat race", competition, rush, "race to the top" for a select few. It's only ignorance, lack of knowing that Abundance, Love, Goodness, Prosperity is our God given right. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF US. Somehow we were taught to believe in separation, right and wrong, us vs. them.

I ask you NOW to see beyond what we were taught, the ideas that are supposed to protect us and make us feel safe and really question if they are for our highest good, which is to be connected to the Source and be aware of our connection to Everything and Everyone, the power this holds. Power equals responsibility.

So in facing my fear, in this moment, I ask you to keep an open mind and really take a look at what is not working in your life, listen to your heart, let go of that that does not serve you. Confront your fear. One thing I realize now is even though fear is quite a monster, faith is not far behind.

I would like to share something with you that I find to be empowering. I ask that you keep an open mind and try and observe and only take that which resonates with you. I ask you to join the revolution that is HAPPENING RIGHT NOW, open up to the possibilities, let your heart, your inner truth be your guide. As Eckhart Tolle expressed in "A New Earth": Evolve or die.

I share this with you, in your process of awakening, in prayer for your redemption. Amen.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ShHpywRMA0o

Be Blessed, Walk in Faith and Gratitude, and Know You Are Love.

Be awakened Beautiful One, Welcome the revolution, the change you fear, and walk into the Age of Love and Peace.

-janice

thoughts on Christ Consciousness

2008-08-30T03:10:00.000-07:00

"God is too big to fit into one religion"-unknown author (at the moment)

well to be honest it is no secret that on a personal level that i am suspicious of religion, which i think is another way by which people label themselves, and in labeling, some of the power and identity of a thing is lost usually due to semantics. why i'm stating this is because i ask myself tonight if I am a Christian. Well if you would define a Christian as someone who believes in Jesus Christ, then I am a Christian. But I also believe there are many roads and paths leading to the same destination, that eventually everyone finds their way, no matter what life they seem to be living that seems so far fetched from the Truth that I would call Source, some may call God. (another word that gets lost in translation)

In the past I have heard stories about the return of Christ. I have a theory on this. Although Jesus died physically, of course his spirit, his memory, the influence, energy and effect of his life has continued on, thus the birth of many Christian based religions. now we are in a time where Christ returns, but not as one physical being, but as a form of consciousness, energy in many beings, all beings. in fact everyone and anyone has the opportunity to open up and create such a life, which i believe is transcending beyond material desires, earthly riches and personal dramas to get to the heart of the matter, which is that we are all connected at the core. Does it mean you have to give up the earthly riches, personal dramas, material desires that most tend to think is the ultimate life experience? no. what matters is that we get back to the place of Remembering and Recognizing what is True. Integrating Spirit into Matter. Breathing Life into what we think is "life." Life being energy, awareness, connection--Total Joy.

If you look around, you can see the Resurrection of Christ in the WWJD (What Would Jesus Do) campaigns but you can also see the work of Christ being exemplified all around you if you really look and watch people awaken to their Divine Nature, Inner Being, the process of Ascension/Growth/Evolution. In big and little ways EVERYONE is doing it, the only difference is that some are aware, and some are not. Yet. The energy and life that was once called Jesus and resided in the life of a man thousands of years ago has not been forsaken, it is alive here and well.

In a moment, transcend all knowledge, assume there is more to life than what you are told, have been told or what you see, what you think you see. Withdraw from externals, the world of illusion. Close your eyes. Listen. Truth is there. Truth is here. Open your eyes and go forth with faith. Let go of that which does not serve you, embrace the things that ring true to your core. Let go of your mind, what you think and open your heart and listen. Come home and be well, be safe in the arms of Source, what some call God.

I share this with you, in my own Prayer and state of Well Being.

love, janice

blooms of abundance

2008-08-29T12:38:00.000-07:00

the law of attraction is in full effect. many of us are feeling it now as we awaken to our Inner Beauty, Divine Selves, Inner Master. there is a plentitude to draw from that is why it is so important to really focus on what you want. You want more truth? you got it. You're feeling frustrated? you got it. Bright idea? you got it. Buckets and buckets and a neverending supply coming your way as you ordered...it's as far as you want to take it.

Fine tune your focus, unwavering and steady because whatever you put your attention to is multiplying quicker and faster and easier than ever before. Listen and watch as your mind is being integrated with higher thoughts of finer quality and of growth and good tidings. Ride the wave that is Abundance, easily drop your old habits of ego, pride, small-self identification and move forth with the Greatness that is Your Truest and Only Self, Total Joy. Breathe deep, be here now. Are you feeling it?

Being in the now, as I apply my thought, i receive brilliant ideas that i can see are interconnected. A never ending supply, a plethora, a Garden of Eden, it goes on and blooms forever and ever. Again, I ask you to BE HERE NOW. now here be. nowhere be. be now here. be nowhere. now be here. three simple words that create magic and miracles. Let us celebrate like its 2008 and beyond!

much love and light and infinite blessings, blooms of abundance, amen,
-janice

to be great

2008-08-27T11:27:00.000-07:00

to be a great person is to be a great soul and let it shine. and in order to do this a great soul recognizes how great other souls are. for a great soul is illuminated by the light and greatness of others. greatness is light. and so in that way, we all help each other and help ourselves by sharing this knowledge, this knowing with one another. for when one wakes up to their Greater Being, the easier it is for others to see, and when others see this, they feel their own inner fire awake and they feel safe to be so, and this is how a revolution is created. this is how we change the world and make it a better place, better than our limited egoic minds can imagine...and slowly as we do this, we prompt the human mind to expand its capacity to receive more. and then we can really create what we want.

simple, isn't it?

let's do it.

-janice

wise old sage Shakespeare

2008-08-27T11:04:00.000-07:00

"All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players;
They have their exits and their entrances,
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages."

-Shakespeare, "As You Like It"

i'm pleased

2008-08-26T22:02:00.000-07:00

i'm pleased. it is such a beautiful thing to witness so many souls, in the forms and representations of people and minds and personalities hungry for more. hungry for better lives, more quality, beauty, purpose and expression of their true and amazing, unique, colorful selves, who they REALLY ARE and meant to be.

why does this please me? because i've been searching and feeling so alone in my life and mind, "thinking" and assuming i was the only one in my inevitable process of struggle and yearning and pain and redemption that is growth and evolution (call it revolution). but as i open my eyes, my awareness expands, i see that i am not alone. i am truly connected and in awe of such an amazing time.

this time in history is viewed by some as cataclysmic and i find this to be a wonderful thing, since it is driving many of us to seek inward and reconnect with our passions and true and Divine purpose, we cocreative beings who have much to contribute to this thing we call our "world" at this time we call "2008" on this place we call "earth."

I wish you well on your journey and your path to Enlightenment, Self Renewal, Rediscovery, Recognition and Self Empowerment.

Many blessings along the way, and know I walk alongside you.

soul to soul, blessed be,
janice

revelation

2008-08-25T11:05:00.000-07:00

truth be told i am discovering more what it means to be a soul in a human body. recently i have come into the experience, a place, a feeling, meeting a wall of frustration in my "life." feeling it made me feel angry and frustrated, i experienced a sense of not being in control, feeling overwhelmed and helpless. I perceive this as my humanness, folly, flaw, where I am not perfect. Not being perfect is not a bad thing. It just means that there is more room and opportunity to grow and be better and be more and expand and experience more.

today i experience what it feels and means to be humble, humbled by what it means to be the personal "me", the egoic "me"; what some may call my personality, and the limitations of my humanness. so i look deeper inside, at myself, my Self, my Greater Self, Soul and see she is waiting for me to acknowledge her, be expressed, let her be and as i do so, i transcend my limitations and humanness and I find that I am greater than I thought. So through this experience of being human, of being humble, I find that I am truly great.

I share this with you from soul to soul.

love, janice

there's more

2008-08-18T09:45:00.001-07:00

there's more to you than what people think. so why do we spend so much time creating an image we want to be seen as? it's not wrong to do so, but it seems that people spend so much time and energy, even an entire lifetime on working on creating their lives on the outside, rather than the inside. don't fool yourself or others into thinking that you are just that, for there is so much more to Who You Really Are. What you are is bright, beautiful, perfect. Feel that for a moment. do you feel that is true? it is on the deepest levels. beyond the world of forms, physicality, created illusions, this thing that many people call life. yes, it is true. look beyond images and how things seem to be. let judgment melt away and reveal inner beauty and truth, in all its glory. be yourself. love and accept all that you are, who you are, and watch magic happen, miracles.

Remember the sign on sideview mirrors? "objects are closer than they appear"?

Love, self, power are closer than they appear.

Be yourself and free yourself.

Amen.

-Janice

to be kind

2008-08-16T22:20:00.000-07:00

To be kind is not only a virtue, but an art. Kindness is a thing of beauty and cultivates it as such.
A kind thought, word, intention, action is something that is both impeccable and unforgettable. Kindness is of a deeper vibration, that resonates on the deepest levels of being, existence, experience.

To be kind is a well thought out intention. It is to move the depths of the Universe through others, through one's own simple decision to act. Kindness is an act of the heart, at times it is not easy to be kind, when one has to consider he/she must surpass the ever so controlling, self sustaining ego, whose mission it is to maintain its complexes of separation and superiority. Therefore, kindness is humility.

Kindness as an art is like an art, in so much as it is a discipline of sorts. to think before speaking, to listen, to open up one's heart and allow oneself to be vulnerable takes an inner fortitude that promises greatness and its subsequent treasures and ultimate divine expression; to act out of love-- just because-- is truly a thing of beauty to behold for those who experience and witness it.

everyone is an artist in their own right by way of this way of being, of kindness. Let go of fear and be who you truly are, he or she who in truth, is kind.

be blessed.

-janice

Illusions

2008-08-13T10:01:00.000-07:00

time and time again, it seems that it has been our human nature to look outside, at life externally...what is he/she doing? and analyzing alone from appearances, we idealize a life that is outside of our own. we look to the truths of others to define our own or to compare ourselves against.

when really the truth is, is the life inside. Who are we really? we have heard it numerous times, "As within, so without" is where it starts. for one to use externals as a basis for existence, one will find themselves lost in the myriad of possibilities, ways of living. That's why it is important to look inside, listen to the still, small voice--- one's heart--- to know where one is best suited to be, the best choice one can make....or express oneself. It is true, each has his/her own inner calling, unique unto itself. the external observations we have of others can be used as a point of reference in both positive and negative ways, how do you choose?

often times, one is overwhelmed by looking within. why? why are they afraid? perhaps because they may find something greater than they ever imagined, or dreamed, and this is mind blowing. In most cases, one is afraid to look within because of the work it takes to get past the layers of identity and role playing they must give up and be humbled by to get to the core of oneself. Or put simply, give up their egos. Nothing is more humbling than the the deconstruction of ego, an unraveling of sorts, some may call it a meltdown, breakdown, crisis. From another perspective, this can be seen as transformation in progress, because that what it is, the dying of one form to resurrect and create again and be renewed as one chooses. Why not make it greater this time?Very little is more rewarding and redeeming as this process. I suggest you try it yourself. Or perhaps you may find you have done this already. Realize in this moment, you will continue to do so throughout your life, your existence. How do you choose to live and perceive this great ability that you have?

These days, too many minds are driven by ego. In this form of existence, mind is ego and ego doesn't not want to let go of its fixations, but to stay in a state of form, identity (what it identifies with). What one can learn is that the mind can be used for higher purposes once given over to the greater urgings within. losing one's mind may be the best thing that's ever happened to person. a pure state of being and existence is expansive, massive, wondrous, unfathomable...greater and greater, multiplied and what would that do? break down all forms of order created by men/beings/forms of consciousness whose intention it was cause oppression amongst beings of great power and potential. I choose to see it as a form of ignorance, a way of poverty thinking to think that not all men, beings, women are allowed to be their greatest, that there is not enough in the sharing of this Great Experience for All to be As They Are. No longer true. All in all, there is a gift in all of this experience, and it is Growth, Evolution, Empowerment.

so i ask you to wake up and be as you are. life is truth is life. Your truth is your life.

Create and be great!

-janice

thoughts on religion

2008-08-11T13:04:00.000-07:00

it seems as if religion seems to cause more division than it causes harmony. religious wars, self judgment, judgment of others, etc. i'm even inclined to think that a lot of mental and emotional disorders are exacerbated by religions, their dogmas, their rules.

it seems to me that religion was created as a way of life, a set of rules by which to live that will cause enrichment of life, and with most religions, it is about an ultimate reward somewhere somehow, all packaged under the label "eternity." but the thing is, is that eternity is not a place, it's a state of flux, being, existence by which one experiences the greatest of all, Self Awareness and Connection, Remembrance, Recognition to the Whole, the Source.

although people would like to think religion is some sort of saving grace, and an answer to the big questions over what is the significance of their lives, it tends to cause so much dissonance between parties over who and what is right and who and what is wrong. but the truth is, no one is right, no one is wrong. a person, a being, one with a mind just is. Not good or bad, just is. and that is enough.

the significance of life has much to do with the pattern of ascension, self empowerment, remembering, connecting, loving. and this is done via the evolution of consciousness. the more evolved a conscience (a being, mind, thing, person) becomes, the more empowered, the more creative. and the continual theme seems to be, to go back to the source. To go forth, and return, to the source. to remember whence you came, and where you shall go. this life, this earthly life is but a place to Create, Play, Live, Enjoy, Experiment, Discover, all the many possibilities that are so. Humans tend to get caught up in taking themselves and their lives much too seriously, forgetting what more they are capable of, what more they CAN do.

that's the beauty--- it is the freedom to expand upon one's consciousness through experience as they choose. Be aware, tread lightly, sing loud, be.

Amen.

-Janice

decision

2008-07-27T23:32:00.000-07:00

i've decided to do something that's makes me feel uncomfortable. share my life and thoughts and current process and attempts at self improvement, or even more so, life. something about this feels so real to me, and although the scaredy cat in me is cowering, another part of me is relieved.

i feel the direction of my life is changing, because i sense and feel it in my thought process and discontent and even more so, a hunger, a hunger for something more, new, different. something great, something that is not yet satisfied.

the beginnings of my new process are that I have been listening to meditation CDs by Miracle Meditations. what's great about them is that they have a meditation for the daytime and for the evening. i like to listen to these first thing when i wake up and also before bed, often falling asleep to the meditation. I'm finding that it seems to be working, even though I am experience varying emotions and energy fluctuations, i am for the most part able to see the positive and possibilities that exist. I am enjoying this quite a bit. In fact, I believe that is why I am here right now writing this post.

so here i am, and here you see the beginnings of this attempt, experience/experiment, whatever you want to call it, and i promise you, you will not be disappointed. this is my attempt at breaking out of a pattern i have created for myself the last 9 years of my life as a stay at home mom whose energy has been heavily vested in creating and sustaining a marriage and family. yet what i'm feeling is no matter how brilliant and beautiful my children are, no matter how loving my husband, i am seeking joy. the joy of being. not of what i look like or what people think, but how I feel and perceive myself and the significance of my life. what does it all mean? i'm not quite sure, but I am starting to understand that happiness is not beyond or outside of me, it's something I deserve and I have the ability to create and emanate.

i did it!

2008-07-27T23:29:00.000-07:00

wow, just in a few minutes, i've created a new blog. amazing how much of my life is spent interacting, observing, researching, discovering, creating, reflecting and communicating here on my laptop.

why i decided to start this blog: to start something new and do what i do best: express myself and my process via my writing and sharing and opening up my world to others and face my fears of being judged and "seen."

there is my intention, declaration, whatever you would like to call it.

i will try my best to be as honest as i can.

-janice